Ava choked =/

Ok im going to copy and paste from a Birth Board about what happened last night :
Well..this evening , franks mom..( yes the one i complained about and never will again ) and I were making Taco Salad for the football game. We were crushing Frito Chips to put in it and Ava got a Frito. I really didnt think anything of it, she never eats anything hard or crunchy...i thought she would just taste it and put it down. Well a few mins later we were talking and ava fell against MILs legs --I said Ava what are you doing? And she didnt turn or move, MIL bent down and picked her up and her face was blood red, her mouth was opened and nothing was coming out..
We soon realized she was choking...then she coughed and we thought she wa ok MIL put her down and i was getting her a drink and i looked back at her and her face was red again , blood red..her mouth opened up and she was stumbling backwards.
Sheer panic...MIL picked her up and was shaking her and i blowed in her face and tried to feel in her mouth, then she turned purple. I started screaming for frank ( though he said it didnt sound like i was saying his name at all, just a high pitched scream )
I dont remember much after that, i remember her face swelling, she started like bloating in the face, and stuff running out of her mouth...I was dialing 911 or trying to.. i dialed it WRONG. i am a horrible mother. I panicked and froze. I felt like i wasnt me any more , i dropped to my knees watching MIL perform the hiemlich..i finally got 911 , and was telling them my daughter was choking, i kept saying that...then i saw MIL sticking her finger down her throat holding her upside down, and then it happened...she threw up. Blood and mucus everywhere, then she gasped and screamed..the 911 operator heard this and was reassuring me that she was ok..she said if i wanted her to send someone she would , but she stayed on the phone with me and listend to ava cry..she told me she was ok and if i changed my mind and was worried she would have someone come out. I probably should of told them to come check her out for my own peace of mind.
Her color came back and she sobbed for an hour. Finally she drank a juice box and a bottle of milk. She is now sleeping but im so afraid its going to come back. Im so afraid...my little babies face was purple as can be , her eyes rolled back in her head and she was limp. MIL said the heimlich wasnt working , that her stomach was hard as a rock. MIL saved avas life...if she wasnt there, i dont know..im such a bad mom, i should of NEVER reacted the way i did. I have never felt so scared in my life, so sad..so sick. I dont want anything to ever happen to her. now im afraid to ever let her eat again. Hold your little ones tight. and please becareful of fritos...i dont know why she even ate that, she doesnt like that stuff.
thank goodness mil was a RN before she worked at the dance studio..for many years. she did break down after we knew she was ok..why couldnt i be strong for ava like her.
I just dont know ..sorry this post is all over the place.

So that was our super bowl night.


On a good note, she is feeling like herself today, she has played and had fun, we went to breakfast with daddy, and to target..she got the "Super Fort" ...which is now taking up the living room..she loves it!



AND we got our EI appt...the lady told me "we fell through the cracks" She was sick, and lost our information. UGH! She told me another lady would be calling right away, 3 hours went by and NO CALL. So i called back and finally spoke with someone...They will be coming out on WED! I cant wait to just get the intake out of the way.