On the verge of a huge panic attack this morning

so im going to blog about it and maybe it will take my mind off of it. This morning i woke up and my floaters were worse than ever, i was seeing some sort of glowing thing..so ok i went back into bed and laid down put some tv on, and felt a little better. Frank left for School, and it makes me sad...i dont want to be alone, i got used to him being home due to the snow. So I put a little einstein dvd on for ave, and go next door to talk to franks mom. So we talk, i tell her i want to paint avas room..it was NEVER done before her birth we bought the paint..then she was born early and we put it off..and put it off...so she said she would help, i sit on the bed check yada, and now im feeling Horrible. I cant breath, i keep yawning, im thinking the worst. I know i have a brain tumor or something, i know it. I dont want to die and leave my baby behind...despite not feeling well all the time, i LOVE life. LOve everything about it, i love my daughter, Frank, my family and friends , my yada mommies..i dont want to leave this earth just yet. Oh why do i have to feel this way. I need to shape up, i sure as heck cant let ava watch a dvd all day because i dont feel good. Fighting off a panic attack is hard...atleast I think thats what im fighting, what if its something way worse.
UGH.